Drumming with a maraca.

This is no hangover.

I feel terrible. 

And just because I turned 21 a week ago, everyone likes to assume I’m just hungover.

Nope. 

I just want these shooting pains in my stomach to go away.. I want my sore throat to go away.. I want to be able to walk to the next room without my head spinning & I want to be able to open my eyes without them burning.

That would be great. 

icecreamisbetterwithafork:

considerablymore:

I need to have more.

Amen.

I’ll lay down this bottle of wine, if you’ll just be kind to me.

I sit here typing a sentence.. deleting, typing a few more words then deleting them again.. Just trying to put what I am feeling into words.. but I can’t.

So I am writing about this frustration instead.

.. and quoting Ray. 

“Don’t lose your faith in me
And I will try not to lose faith in you
Don’t put your trust in walls
‘Cause walls will only crush you when they fall.”

- Be Here Now . Ray LaMontagne 

Beauty so precious.

So we’ll walk down the shoreline 
One last time together 
Feel the wind blow our wanderin’ hearts Like a feather 
But who knows what’s waiting 
In the wings of time 
Dry your eyes 
We gotta go where we can shine 

Don’t be hiding in sorrow 
Or clinging to the past 
With your beauty so precious 
And the season so fast 
No matter how cold the horizon appear 
Or how far the first night 
When I held you near 
You gotta rise from these ashes 
Like a bird of flame 
Step out of the shadow 
We’ve gotta go where we can shine..

“Shine” by David Gray 

I am not eating bead, but drinking beer..?

Goal: Get in tip-top shape.

And I am sore as hell.

And I have also decided that I am going on a diet..ish thing… Well, it’s not too strict of a diet, but I am limiting my sugars & cutting out bread (this is HUGE for me)!

I absolutely, positively love bread.

Hence, why it might be my problem.. I was thinking about it & almost every meal of mine has bread in it! I am the sandwich queen! So to ween me off of my obsessive bread habits I am taking a two week break.. Small steps. I decided it’s easier me to stick to a plan/ diet if it’s shorter term- Just to not eat bread ever is not an option. Plain & simple. I just need to get used to not eating it sooo much.

So before anyone gives me crap for “dieting”-STOP.. I am just trying to make wiser choices. 

Confession: I am drinking a cervesa right now while watching the game- Go LeBron! :)

Situation squashed.

Seriously can’t get over how amazing my family is.

My cousin Chloe made me cry multiple times tonight— with her toast, amazing voice, & awesome guitar skills.. The fact that her and her brother can play guitar and sing together is one of the most beautiful things that I could ever witness. I cannot even explain how happy it made me. Especially when my uncles joined in ! ahh.

When she got up and gave a toast about how lucky she was to be apart of this family- I knew exactly what she was talking about.. There is this bond that our whole family has that is incomparable.. Maybe I am biased, but I don’t think so. ;)

I have the time of my life when I am with my family; they are beautiful, talented, and have the biggest hearts. Every. single. one. of. them.

Poturalski.

I never want my last name to change. 

Congratulations Big Wave Dave!! :) We got all together because of YOU :)

I see the light, feel the sun & have too much fun.

Lately I have been spending a lot of time outside.. and I love every. single. minute of it. Not only has it been beyond beautiful outside, but the warm sun feels amazing! 

I honestly think the sun has healing powers- yes, that sounds corny, but I feel like being outside at least 15 minutes everyday should be a health requirement. It gives me energy and makes me happy! Just go do ANYTHING outside; read, run, walk, rollerblade, have a garage sale.. go to a garage sale, swing at the park, ride your bike— try it. Let me know how it makes you feel!?! I’m in love with the sun. I’ve decided want to be in it allll the time… That statement might be a little ascu coming mid-July though haha.. but you get the point. Let me be in sun more.

I’ve been thinking about rollerblading to places close, cause I don’t have a bike & I can’t run still. GR. So if you see me as you drive by, don’t hate- it’s fun to feel like a kid again :) I may look like a complete dork, but I’m leaving a smaller carbon footprint on this world.

So stick that in your juice box and suck it.